"Love is.... never having to say you're sorry."
omg remember THAT crock of shit expression!
Love contains LOTS of "im sorrys" and "you're welcomes" and "i love you's" and xox's.
WHY is LOVE the most primal yet most complicated emotion to master?
I happen to suck at love sometimes, well, fuck i guess we all do.....
I'm lucky enough to have been reminded
that time on earth is sometimes unexpectedly short
i say lucky because some people do not ever grasp that concept until their deathbed
trust me, i certainly didnt feel "lucky" at the time of ANY of these lessons
the lessons i speak of involved losing love ones that passed on too early
i have my father, some VERY dear friends, some family members and a lover
after each loss
a declaration was made that my heart could handle NO MORE! TIME for LOCKDOWN.
Last year after the unexpected loss of a good friend and ex lover
i started waking up feeling like i was dropped out of a plane each and EVERY day .....
he once wrote to me in a letter, "the best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up". (paul valery quote)
i DO know he constantly reminds me to wake up.
finally.
why wait?
wait for what?
is the better question i posed to myself
all pages after his loss are entitled the "LIVE LIFE LOUD" chapter of my life.
You cant always get what you waa-aant, you get what you need........ (stones, amen)
Love is a battlefield. Pat Benatar said that. Truer words, never spoken, bitch.
Love is light and love is trust. Love is good and love is just............a game?
maybe to some.....
sometimes complicated things are actually very simple,
love is wanting to make someone else happy because that in turn makes YOU happy
love, sometimes is just BEING there for someone.
if you suck at love (like me)- TRY HARDER!
it is so VERY worth learning to do right <3
Happy "Everyday should be Valentines day" Day!
ill check back soon
XXX
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